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Time flies too fast; I almost done my 2nd semester in matriculation program; my life changed drastically. I felt like I was suffocating most of the time having to cope with so many teenage hood obligations. Too many little thing have to be taken care of, the sudden need of having to socialize, and make new friends because my study schedule slowly paralyzing my ability to withstand the pressure. My college works have shaken my introverted self and everyday was tiring.

A part of that, I failed to keep in touch with so many people whom I dearly care and close with. I have forgotten so many important dates; birthday etc. Stress is just a word because everyone been through it. But waking up after falls down is a struggle. Then I started questioning myself, my passion, by doing the same things over and over again. I lost my compassionate self at times and cried when it got to severe with emotional burden of being alone at a place where I have no one to rely but myself.



People don't see this because I hardly open up with people. They see I am just like other person; no pressure, problem, illness and live like happy-go-lucky person. I always put in my mind; my problem is just a small problem and insignificant and it cannot be bothered by anyone but my own self. I do not want people to see me as a weak man who is struggling make a life.

So, I just smile, laugh and positively... fake for people around me.

Am I really changed? Or I am growing up?
I am questioning myself why this is happening.
Is the answer, growing up?
I'm not sure.



Thank you to those who is always at my back; trying to understand myself but couldn't.
I am so glad for having these bunch of friends who always cheer up my day. So, this is how I cope myself with everything that happen to me until no one knows.

Syauky, Fauzul, Danish, Aziem, Hanis, Asmiza, Qistina,
Izham, Dash, Shazline, Elieya, Megat, Zul,
Kirin, Bob, Pika, Farah, Aliah, Dani

Thank you for making my matriculation life better.


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